Date NIght

Everyone who is reading this entry has probably once told me "Czar, the right girl is out there for you". I politely say thank you, nod my head and usually walk away. Lets be honest, I do have a great personality, I can make people laugh, but I am just missing the "it" factor. I dress ok, my hair is beautiful, I wear Armani cologne, my smile is to die for. I have put myself out there my whole life to get little or no response. At 30 years old I am beginning to think my prime is behind me. No girl wants a guy who wakes up every morning with a sore back, knees hurting, and dry lips. Girls are all looking for that movie screen appearence which I just dont have. I cant give you a 6pack, structured jaw line and Gucci suits. I can give you fun, laughs, and the ability to make you feel special. I will tell you that doesnt go far these days. I am not sitting here trying to make you feel sorry for me, I am just opening up your minds to what I can and cant do as I take you on my journey from my Wednesday night date.

HERE WE GO.......


I am not afraid to say that I have taken my dating struggles to Match.com, now I wouldnt say that I creep on people, send them emails or anything like that. I will say that I look at peoples pictures and then move on. A few weeks back as I was browsing pictures I noticed a girl who caught my attention. I did the unthinkable, I sent her an email saying this "as soon as you look at your other emails please email me back. I think you are cute a s a button". Of course she never emailed me back, so the next time I was on I saw she was on so I instant messaged her. We talked back and forth for about the next 2 hours. It ended with me getting her email address, I emailed her later in the day and gave her my phone number and told her to text me if she was interested. A few hours later I received a text so of course I was excited. We talked back and forth and then she called me. We had a fun 30 minute conversation that ended with setting up a date a few days later.

IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS THE TEXTING AND TALKING ON THE PHONE CONTINUED......


DATE NIGHT.....


As I am preparing to meet her at a resteraunt in Menomonee Falls I am a touch nervous. Basically this is a blind date and not something I am too famalier with. Jeans and a collared Polo shirt is what I chose to wear. I get out of the shower and I begin to sweat per usual. I get my cloths on, get my hair did, and begin looking for my license. Of course I cant find it. I am running around my house, perspiring, and I dont have a clue where my license is. Luckily I am now 30 and NEVER get carded anymore. I drive to Menomonee Falls listening to my Alicia Keys cd to settle my nerves. I get to the resteraunt about 20 minutes early and as I am sitting there I think to myself "this is all gravy". She calls me as she is pulling in, I get out of my car, she parks her car.....she gets out and HOLY SHIT. This girl was put together. My heart immediately started beating faster as I walked up to her and gave her an awkward ass out hug. Honestly this girl was stunning and had a beautiful smile.

We sat down at the table and began examining eachother, questions after questions, but I felt like we were both very comfortable. I couldnt help but notice she was saying things like "when you meet my parents" or "on our next date" giving me the simple indication that she was interested and there would be another date. This made me feel like I didnt have to try and make myself seem cooler than I really am. In my mind there was already a 2nd date 1 hour into our first date. We had a few beers and laughed the whole time we were there. 3 hours later the date ended and I was on top of the world. As we walked out we gave another awkward hug and went on our own ways. On the way home we sent a few text messages back and forth and then we even talked and said goodnight.

The next day we sent a few texts back and forth and that was it.

The day after that I sent her a text at 10:37am that said "were you still interested in hanging out this weekend"?

It is now Tuesday at 9:57am and I am still waiting for a reply.

Look, I know what this means, I am not a dumb ass. I was played like a guitar, but my question is why couldnt this girl just text me back saying "NO"? Is it really that hard? If you dont want to hurt my feelings than make up a lie, I dont care.....just dont leave a good dude hanging. I was mad for about a 14 hour period and then went out with my friends and had a few adult beverages. It is amazing how laughing with friends makes you feel better. This has made me realize that maybe I will just stay single and wait for all my married freinds to call and want to hangout. That way there is no awkwardness, there is always laughing, and I know I wont get dumped.


Hugs and Handpounds,
Czar